Aakrati

Where were you when I was burned and broken,
While the days slipped by from my window watching,
Where were you when I was hurt and helpless,
Because the things you say and the things you do surround me….
While you were hanging yourself on someone else’s words,
Dying to believe in what you heard,
I was staring straight into the shining sun….

Lost in thought and lost in time,
While the seeds of lifeand the seeds of change were planted….
Outside the rain fell dark and slow,
While I pondered on this dangerous but irresistible pastime,
I took a heavenly ride through our silence,
I knew the moment had arrived,
For killing the past and coming back to life….

I took a heavenly ride through our silence,
I knew the waiting had begun,
And headed straight…. into the shining sun….

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“Mora piya mose bolat nahi…

Dwar jiya ke kholat nahi…”

Watched Rajneeti today… first half was good… Its an awesomely paced movie with a weak wind up. Still I would recommend it. Definitely (atleast) one time watch… Loved the song ‘mora piya’.

Its almost 3:00 am. Feeling so lonely.  I have no one to talk with… Feeling so depressed.

I have faced several tough patches in my life and like before this one will pass too (I hope)…

“It’s always darkest before the dawn.”

All heat no rain… Its been a dry hot summer. In last 20 years, it always rained this day. Its my B’day today….

Bachpan mein jab b’day waale din baarish hoti thi to main rota tha. Agar baarish ki wajah se log nahi aayenge to fir gifts kaise milenge… Hamesha sochta tha ki agar b’day ke din baarish na ho to kitna accha ho… Jyaada log aayenee aur jyaada gifts milenge.. But now jab baarish nahi hai to I realized that there is no one to attend my b’day….. God has great sense of Humour.

Anyways… all I have to say…

Thoda hai Thode ki zaroorat hai…
Zindagi phir bhi yahan khoobsurat hai….

It began same day last year… Just 365 days with her, and see what my friend turned into…

Just Kidding… They are a real good couple.. "Made for each other" sort..

Bhajji n Maneesha.. Happy Anniversary.. God Bless You…

There have been few ppl in my life who have represented the best of human traits. They symbolize Courage, Strength and Faith. I have worshipped them through and through. A single glimpse of them has motivated me in the lowest and darkest moments.
But now I can see them fall into pieces. All my faith and hopes are shattering… This is tough time for us. I just pray to God that we pass through it.

At times, I am an egoistic bastard who never gives up easily for anyone. But in course of my life I have granted, few ppl, a power to manipulate me (both in positive and negative sense).  Now as of today, I am feeling cheated, insulted and neglected. I crushed my egos and came back to you again and again, but you never cared.  I dont know whether today was my last attempt to carry on the relationship, but the response I got has killed something inside me. Life will never be same again.
Anyways. Happy B’day. Have a blast (you already blasted me )

I don’t need no arms around me
And I dont need no drugs to calm me.
I have seen the writing on the wall.
Don’t think I need anything at all.
No! Don’t think I’ll need anything at all.
All in all it was all just bricks in the wall.
All in all you were all just bricks in the wall.

­Another brick in the the wall - 3 by Pink Floyd.

June16, 2008. 2:20 pm

Its been exactly one year since I left Roorkee. Life has changed a lot since then..

Just now I woke up. Had a real bad dream. I wonder if the ghosts of my past would haunt me forever? Is there any real way to wipe out my complete past from my head? I always knew my actions will cost me alot, but I think now I have paid for them, more than I can afford.
Rest, as always, I have my faith in God,
Life is Beautiful (still).