Aakrati

Where were you when I was burned and broken,
While the days slipped by from my window watching,
Where were you when I was hurt and helpless,
Because the things you say and the things you do surround me….
While you were hanging yourself on someone else’s words,
Dying to believe in what you heard,
I was staring straight into the shining sun….

Lost in thought and lost in time,
While the seeds of lifeand the seeds of change were planted….
Outside the rain fell dark and slow,
While I pondered on this dangerous but irresistible pastime,
I took a heavenly ride through our silence,
I knew the moment had arrived,
For killing the past and coming back to life….

I took a heavenly ride through our silence,
I knew the waiting had begun,
And headed straight…. into the shining sun….

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All heat no rain… Its been a dry hot summer. In last 20 years, it always rained this day. Its my B’day today….

Bachpan mein jab b’day waale din baarish hoti thi to main rota tha. Agar baarish ki wajah se log nahi aayenge to fir gifts kaise milenge… Hamesha sochta tha ki agar b’day ke din baarish na ho to kitna accha ho… Jyaada log aayenee aur jyaada gifts milenge.. But now jab baarish nahi hai to I realized that there is no one to attend my b’day….. God has great sense of Humour.

Anyways… all I have to say…

Thoda hai Thode ki zaroorat hai…
Zindagi phir bhi yahan khoobsurat hai….

There have been few ppl in my life who have represented the best of human traits. They symbolize Courage, Strength and Faith. I have worshipped them through and through. A single glimpse of them has motivated me in the lowest and darkest moments.
But now I can see them fall into pieces. All my faith and hopes are shattering… This is tough time for us. I just pray to God that we pass through it.

At times, I am an egoistic bastard who never gives up easily for anyone. But in course of my life I have granted, few ppl, a power to manipulate me (both in positive and negative sense).  Now as of today, I am feeling cheated, insulted and neglected. I crushed my egos and came back to you again and again, but you never cared.  I dont know whether today was my last attempt to carry on the relationship, but the response I got has killed something inside me. Life will never be same again.
Anyways. Happy B’day. Have a blast (you already blasted me )